Ignorance is bliss #part2

If he stills keep ignoring me. I will say our relationship ends here and I hope he has a better life and a better future of his own. I can fix this broken heart even though I've been through with sickness this 2 weeks. Hope God gives him a better person to be with. I am not the person for him. However, he will always be my first love. I never love someone so deep until I fall a sick. I can't eat and I can't think of anything besides him. I let it goes away with uploading pictures at Instagram and forgive me if it's annoying you guys. I really can't think of anything. I almost did something stupid (dye my hair ) but thanks guys for the good advice. Will let myself close to God. I am strong and I can solve it. After the relationship ends, I promise myself this time to focus on my carrier and myself. Family is my priority and I need to focus on that. Even though, we never SMS or call but I will say this, my love to you never dim. I don't know if you feel the same way that I feel. I hope you feel it. This relationship makes me realize so many things and what I missed out there. Now I learn to get to know the world and other people and even making new friends. I work extra hard everyday for try not to think too much about it because every time I think about you, my heart hurts and makes me go insane. Seriously, I am not lying. The first man who successfully conquered my heart until I become so unstable.


These questions keep playing in my head: -

What are you doing right now?
How are you?
Do you still love me?
Do you still need me?
Do you really care about me?
How could you do this to me?
Should we continue ignoring each other?
Should I just break up with you if you want a freedom?
Am I a bad person?
Should I blame myself for everything?
Was it my fault?
Have you eaten?
How's your day?
Is you stomach okay?
Are you in the hospital?
Are you sick?
Maybe you found someone better.
When I saw your picture. I felt hurt and distrusting you and you are being dishonest with me. Small matters are like a big problems with me. Sorry. When you said no but what actually you meant was yes. Okay bye. Long distance really really challenging.