Ignorance is bliss #part4

Oh my. My headache never goes away. I think it is migraine. Got back work last night at 1 o'clock and whatsapp with my bff and thank you for the understanding. You the sweetest girl that understand me more and care for me more. Even to my BFF group at whatsapp understood me. Thank you guys for the care and the support you gave to me. Appreciated it. Even so, he still the one I need the most. I want him and I want to be at his side everyday but seems he is happy with his friends nowadays more than he is happy with me. It's kinda hurt but nvm. The only way to cool the pain is by deactivate my facebooks. Both. Maybe this will be my last Blog to update. I will gonna deactivate everything has to do with internet. Fiuh. I can write faster by looking at screen only and using my idiot brains to work the words. Hahaha. Sorry for the broken english or even the pathetic english grammar of mine. I am very weak with english but at school I will always be the top 1. Oh yeah! haha. I don't have to be sad all the time kan. I still can laugh and now I am putting this Red Chilli Plaster at my head because every time I look left and right my eyes hurt the inside of it. I don't know what to call it because I am not the science student. Ngee~~ However, even though my relationship suddenly stop this month I will never lost contact with his family or anyone that close to him. Maybe my jealousy won't make man stand with me for the rest of my life and as I promised you that day and I promised myself. After I lost you I will never ever get marry or find another man to replace you because you the one I love the most and because of you I fall in love again. Maybe I dreamed to have my own family, babies and house and car but maybe I was meant to be alone after all. Every morning, I woke up the first thing in my head is you. Even if I ate, you will be the first person in my head until I lost my appetite. Until my family keep advising me and scolded me because of my condition nowadays. Now gastric really killing me and now I know how is it feel to be left alone. I will continue with the smile every second that I have to face the others so they won't worry about me more. Hope he is doing fine and it looks like he is enjoying holiday and free time with his friends. Look at me, busy with work to earn money to go KL.  Okay, hurm. Wish me all the best. I don't care. OH damn! don't make me cry! I won't cry anymore. Stay strong Sharon. :)